Model Farwa Ali Kazmi, who tested positive for COVID-19 in October, has revealed that she had a miscarriage earlier this year.

Sharing a picture of her ultrasound on social media, Kazmi opened up about the painful experience and said she felt that people need to talk more about it.

“While everyone looks back at this year and shares good memories, I am sharing my story that doesn’t have a happy ending,” wrote the model. “I went through something called a ‘missed miscarriage’.”

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“People seldom talk about miscarriage because a lot of guilt, shame and pain is attached to it,” she said. “I feel we need to speak more about the uncomfortable and difficult topics because not talking about it makes it feel worse. Losing a child is monumental and should be mourned for as long as one wants. It’s not the mother’s fault nor in her control.”

The model further wrote: “I was scrolling through my notes today and came across a love letter that I had written for my baby that was never born and I couldn’t even look at it. It brought back all the painful memories from the day I ended up in labour room.”

Kazmi added that she “does not want to go into details of it but it’s unimaginable pain and loss for someone who hasn’t gone through it.”

“What it feels like, to think at one moment that you’ll be bringing a baby home in seven months and the next second you know that you won’t because your embryo doesn’t have a heartbeat. It’s doesn’t end here. The process of terminating a pregnancy is like the worst nightmare,” she said. “It’s like so much pain without any gain. I’m still dealing with complications after the miscarriage.”

Thanking her friends and family for their support during this difficult time, Farwa said that she prayed for 2021 to be kinder, happier and prosperous for all.

In the past year, several known personalities such as Chrissy Teigen and the Duchess of Sussex Meghan Markle have opened up about their own experiences of miscarriage.